I don't really know my reasons for not updating like I should. I think about this page, and I go and read other people's diaries, but I never get around to updating my own. Maybe it's because my life is boring right now. I work, go home, work, go home, and sometimes get to see Chris, who has a hectic schedule and little time for me (and, yes, there have been fights about this, but I have resigned to the fact that seeing him once a week or so is better than sitting at home alone every night).

He calls and cancels dates because some buddy is coming in from Lubbock, or Dallas, or San Antonio, or Oklahoma. Every weekend it's something. And then I'll wake up and have some drunk message on my cell phone from him looking for someone to do when the bars close. The mornings I don't get those messages I worry that he DID find someone to do so he didn't call me.

He doesn't ever do the follow up call on Sunday, either. He waits until Monday or Tuesday and drops me a safe e-mail, saying something like

Man, I was knocked out Saturday...what did you end up doing?

I guess he thinks I'm too stupid to realize that e-mail is the easiest way to keep someone hanging on. This way you don't have to call or anything...but you are still keeping contact.

I'm pretty sure it's not because I'm head over heals with him to put up with this treatment, I think it's laziness. Or maybe I'm tired. And I still need some rest.

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